And now we’re back to the beginning.
I knew last year that 2010 will be different and that lots of things will be changing. And, I was right.
There were a good amount of changes in my life this year. And I think they were all pretty good changes, for the most part.
I’ve made a lot of good friends this year and became even closer to the ones I already have. Yes, I know I have been gradually losing touch with some friends that I expected more out of and whether this change is irreversible or not is still to be determined. But, I am happy. I am happy with the people who surround me on a daily basis – from my family to my best friend to my nurses, I’m complete. I’ve come to the realization that if certain people wanted to be in my life, they would make an effort to do so. Because I’ve done it for years and I’m sick of it. We’ll see what 2011 has in store for me in terms of friendship and relationships. But, like I said, I’m fine with what I have right now.
Most of all, I like the direction and perspective I was given this year. It’s so amazingly comforting to have purpose and direction in my life. I’m no longer lost in some proverbial sea, wondering what the hell I’m going to do with my life and where I’m going to end up. I know what I want out of my life. And I’m slowly getting there. My dreams and goals are tangible and reachable. And you have no idea how great that feels.
My life hasn’t been this good in a long, long time. I have lots of doors opening for me in this upcoming year. And, that’s the beauty of this future – those doors will keep opening.
So, I’m going to end this reflection because a.) I will never be able to find the right words to describe the place where I am right now on the last day of 2010 and b.) I have to go help my mom cook for our family new year party.
See you all in 2011.