“I have noticed that if you look carefully at people’s eyes the first five seconds they look at you, the truth of their feelings will shine through for just an instant before it flickers away”—The Secret Life of Bees
& it’s a pretty damn good feeling. as many of you know, it wasn’t exactly my dream to be a nurse. it just was kind of something that just happened. but, i’m finding that i’m liking it more and more everyday. i don’t know if this is a temporary thing but i really hope it’s not, you know?
in the first chapter of my first nursing textbook, there was a portion on “continuing education.” i’ve always known that i was going to get a master’s or a PhD someday. and, now i know exactly what that advanced degree it’s going to be in.
i’m going to be a Certified Registered Nurse Anesthesist.
anesthesiology is always something that had interested me. i’ve been doing random presentations on it since middle school general science. this is what i want. thing is, CRNA school is highly competitive so i have to start preparing now.
so, here’s a list of goals to make sure i accomplish this:
do well in my BSN program. they look for a minimum of a 3.0 but that’s not going to cut it. A’s are a necessity.
take upper-division statistics and research courses.
letters of recommendations from professors and employers.
improve interview skills.
find a job in the SICU or PACU (max two years exp. i want to apply as soon as i can)
over the years, begin writing some kick-ass personal statements.
if i don’t get into the schools in CA, i want east coast schools. hell, i think i want east coast schools either way.
i know i’m barely in my first semester. and, i haven’t even began clinicals. but, damn it, i’ve never been the type of person to just think in the “here-and-now” and that’s always worked out for me. this is fcking it.
this is right for me.
(i’ve got a lot of reading to do and vital signs to practice that i’m completely ignoring because of this. love.)
postscript. yes i know i’m always getting random epiphanies but i think this is different. this is something i really want. it’s not going away.
worked with R & A. today we ordered pat & oscar’s (barbeque wings, salad, bread sticks, and potato wedges) and discussed our favorite customers (“the christmas lady! shoulders! mustache!”) and the worst (“satan and her sister”). there was a lot of laughs.
actually, the entire day was a really good one, now that i think about it. i woke up early to drop my sister off, got an iced caramel machiatto from starbucks, watched friends, finished my reading, applied for scholarships, went to the mall, took pictures, and wrote in mine and B’s journal.